"Fame is the scentless sunflower with gaudy crown of gold,
But friendship is the breathing of rose, with sweets in every fold"
I really am very pissed at this moment. LIFE to me is so useless right now. I just wonder how am i going to survive like this, slacking at home and just waiting time to pass. I just hate my life.
Firstly, there were still no calls from the any of the company's that i've gone to until today. That means i still have got no job up to today. I am extremely pissed at Banquet for tricking us.
Three of my friends who have gone for the interview together with me have gotten their call from Razali the Toys R US manager, EXCEPT FOR ME.
I mean isnt that
awesome? I am the one who have brought them there and im the one now, still left jobless.
Mangkuk sial.
I mean, dont get me wrong lah, im happy for you guys of course. But i just cannot control my feelings right now. SERIOUS. I felt like a big loser. I mean, why dont they just take us all and from there then they can start you know, choosing who's better and all that. I mean our main purpose is to gain some working experience, thats all, is that too much to ask for?? Like, HELLO, we only have graduated not long ago only, what else do you expect? For us to have a very experienced- looking face or something?
Mum, im also damn pissed with you. Whats up with you man?? You are being very unreasonable!
Just give me a break cant you?
I know you just cant see me having a nice time relaxing at home. I know you hate me to watch the telly for too long. I know you hate looking at me sleeping. I know you hate it when i'm negleting my duties as a daughter, that is to help you in the kitchen, clean the house and all shit. I know ma, i know. I have been with you for 16 years plus, i know what you have expected in me. But
I HAVE FINISHED MY MAJOR EXAMINATIONS, EXCUSE ME!
Can you be more understanding?
Everyday your mouth simply just cant stop nagging. And everything is about the same old shit. You thought that was intresting and may entertain me. It just goes on and on. You thought by doing that i will listen to you. Please ok ma, it just make me felt sick and tired of you, your face, your voice and that just make me want to rebel more. Thats what. I have done a reflection just now and ya, its true. Thats what im feeling right now, I have the feeling of hatred deep inside my heart. Of you.
I am sure you did not want that mum. I understand you, i understand what you want from me. I know, like im the only the daughter of yours and you expect alot from me. I KNOW. But i just did not have the mood to do those things at this moment ma! I just have no mood, do you get it?
I promise i'll favour you on the day when my mood really comes. I'll cook for you. I'll clean the house. OKEY.
Another thing, i know you know nothing about computer technology and internet. All you know is only the disadvantages that is alot of girls have been raped or murdered or whatever shit by the strangers that they have chat through the net. Thats all you know. And so everytime i went to the net, you will say that over and over and over and over again.
I KNOW MUM.
Im never being addicted to chit chatting, what else to meet those person that i dont know. Yah, maybe i do when im in sec1, but ma, im 16 now ma. I know whats good and whats bad for me. I really do know.
But sometimes when i chat with my friends at the msn and you saw boxes popping out and saw me typing and typing, you said and remind me the same old shit again. Like, HELLO, this people are my friends, people that i know. They are not strangers.
AND we are not going to do sex! Plus they are not going to kill me!
But you still dont understand. You still repeat your old shit worries. Just because i minimise the box when she came in.
'Why must you not show me, if its not someting wrong?'
OH MY GOD, mum. They are just my friends.
I need my space man. I need some privacy.
Cant you just get that into your thick skull??
WOKEY.
Now that i've blurbed out everything her i felt so much relieved.
Btw,
Happy Birthday Seha!!
Till then,
boboi
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